Nothing versus Something
I feel like I have always been waiting. Waiting for things
to change, waiting for more money, waiting for the right time, etc. Each time I
go through a change in my life I feel like I am waiting on God to show me the
way to go, or, if I know the way but it’s hard or boring I am waiting for God to
show me the benefit of doing what I don’t feel like doing. Please forgive my
tongue-twisting sentences; this is what my thoughts tend to do when I am in the
process of discovering that it is, again, time to, “Wait on God.”
It’s hard to believe that after many years of doing this and
doing that, that God would want me to trust and wait. It looks like I’m doing
nothing, but inside I am asking Him over and over, am I really just supposed to
wait on You? Aren’t there any errands I could run, some few items I could tend
to while I am waiting? Isn’t there anything I could do to help?
Hahaha! I am actually
laughing at that last question, because I can see that is the root of my
problem, my question. I don’t want to just leave it in God’s hands and trust in
His ways and timing. I want to reassure my insecure self that I have done
absolutely everything that I could do. Why would that be?
I suspect that I want people to know and think that I have
done my best and that I have not failed at my duties and responsibilities. But
if I go a little deeper, I discover that my pride wants my actions and life
choices to be proven right! Pride is such a sneaky little devil, disguising
itself in all sorts of way, and in this case, in the appearance of just wanting
to be diligent and helpful.
God has told me very clearly in scriptures, and confirmed it
through conversations with trusted and mature Christian friends, that God is
moving even when I think nothing is happening.
Right now all I am supposed to do is pray, trust, and wait on Him. Who
knew that doing ‘nothing’ would be harder than doing ‘something’?
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. 6 Remember the Lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way. 7 Never let yourself think that you are wiser than you are; simply obey the Lord and refuse to do wrong.
Proverbs 3:5-7 Good News Translation
Dear Lord, thank You for leading us in the
way we should go. We trust You and thank You for watching over us. Thank You for hearing every prayer whispered in our hearts. In Jesus
name, amen.
Written by Mary M. Wilkins
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