Release the Balloons...Fridat

10/18/13

Let go of the Guilt

Very truly I tell you;

whoever hears my word

 and believes Him 
who sent me

has eternal life 
and will not be judged

but has crossed over 
from death to life.

John 5:24

When I read this scripture, I thought, “Really, God? Is this the scripture you wanted me to hear? I know this and believe it." He answered, “I know you do. Still, sometimes it seems as if you release a helium balloon to rise with the guilt you are repenting of when all of a sudden just as the string goes almost out of reach you jump up and grab it and bring the balloon back down to yourself. Please read the last two phrases of the scripture I have given you.”

I read the whole thing again not just the last two phrases…always anal and a bit self-willed. I told myself that I wanted perfect understanding of what I was expected to learn, and therefore I felt that I needed to reread it a few times. I suddenly noticed that He was silent…no more still soft voice in my ear. He waited for me to get around to doing as he had asked. Finally, after several readings I got down to the task at hand. Later when I thought about this whole episode, I imagined God laughing, perhaps banging his head on a cloud, and saying, “Thank ME, she finally is following my request!” (After all he could not say “Thank God.” You get my drift.)

Those who believe and hear His word will have…

 “eternal life and will not be judged”

Wow!!! That was easy. I will live forever in God’s presence because I said, “I do,” to the marriage proposal of my divine Groom.

Those who believe and hear His word will…

“not be judged” 

because she already

 “has crossed over from death to life”

“You are trying to remind me that You have already sealed my future. I knew that, Lord.”

“Yes, my child I know you know it. But sometimes you think that you need to keep talking to me about guilt that I do not even remember. Trust me it is in the sea of forgetfulness.”

I received this scripture, not because God wanted me to relax and do as I please, there were still things that were important for me to do…not to earn but to show Him my love. I already have the gift of Him, and I will never lose it. He has made me a pearl of great price, His child, His chosen, and His beloved. I need to let go of guilt. I need to live in the gift He gave me and let the balloon string go.

Corinne Mustafa

 

(Written at a writers retreat in May where each partivipant

received a scripture to write about.)