March 28, 2014
In my reading of “Jesus Calling” today, the following was
the first sentence, “Be still in my presence even though countless tasks clamor
for your attention.” I read that as I
sat down to wait to be called at the Urgent Care Center. I stopped by there
to see a doctor due to having an anxiety attack; funny, huh? Boy, did I need to read that! The next line is, “Nothing is as important
as spending time with me”.
I am an office manager at a tax office. This is my ninth tax season and I have never
had an anxiety attack…..very stressed yes, very angry, hurt and crying spells
yes, but, never to the point of a true panic/anxiety meltdown. I know that I have been spread very thin, as
is the norm for this season of each year.
At the beginning of this tax season I had told myself that I was not
going to put the rest of my life on hold this year, as I normally do, and forget
to pay bills, etc. However, what I have neglected this tax season
is the most important of all. My loving and faithful God! I have not made Him a priority. I have told myself that I was still keeping
Him in my life, as I was doing my service at church, but, the reality is that I
was not keeping my commitment to my quiet time, my reading and my stillness of
listening for the oh so wonderful voice of my precious Father helping me
through the long hours. Also I have not been allowing Him to carry me
through the murky unpleasantness of tax preparation that unfortunately has to
be done whilst on this earth.
Do not conform to the pattern
of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
Then you will
be able to test and approve what God’s will is—
His good, pleasing and perfect
will.
Romans 12:2
(NIV)
I have let my little mind be so cluttered up with the
pleasing of all the clients, making my job such a priority, which yes, of
course it needs to be, but, I got to the point of being diseased by the stress
of wanting to be perfect without looking to the only perfect source for
assistance. I had to get in a state of
illness to be put in my spot and reminded that He is always there, just waiting
for me to look up. My afternoon was so
much better after being still and listening for my “Jesus Calling”.
Written by
Kelly Dobyns
The song for today is My God sung by Jeremy Camp
I also read that reading this morning. In the midst of a busy life I often find it hard to just relax and think about God. Today I did sit still for a while and I feel that God told me that it is okay to work for Him, but he would rather I work with Him. I realized that there is a difference.
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